I pray. I prayed as a child. As a good, young Catholic school boy. Not as "fervently" and "piously" as my classmates evidently believed I did given my extreme quietness (maybe not "shyness," but quietness, out of fear of... Or, maybe, just out of "fear") and the fact that I shared a first name with … Continue reading On Prayer
Category: Autobiographical
“Advanced Recovery”
My breakdown didn't really happen. It is all a lie. I have been lying to you all this whole time. And my family. And the orderlies, psychiatrists, and other personnel in the hospital who strapped me to the hospital bed during my second hospitalization (with pee-cup, and all) so that I would not, once again, … Continue reading “Advanced Recovery”
“Into the Woods”
The thought of dying, alone, in the woods, in the midst of my breakdown, evidently, did not scare me, but the thought of dying alone, lost and afraid, in the years since the breakdown, has. I was never alone. And, I am not alone. And neither are you. We are here, all of US, together … Continue reading “Into the Woods”
“The Matrix”
25 Years Later, We’re All Trapped in ‘The Matrix’ - WSJ They offered me a blue pill and a red pill in the hospital. I thought I was supposed to choose. Actually, I've always been compliant with the medication. I may have ALWAYS been resistant to the idea of it, even before the breakdown, but … Continue reading “The Matrix”
“You can’t do it without Jesus.”
You can't do it without Jesus. That's what the book said, or something like it, the small red one that my father had given me and the other members of my family of origin many years before, and which I was now huddled over beneath that tree in the "Garden of Eden" outside the Bank … Continue reading “You can’t do it without Jesus.”
When the breakdown happened…
When the breakdown happened, that's all there was... Break. Down. The ground was the brakes, and then it was all DOWNhill from there. And then some. But there was an UP, too. And that was from you, mother and father. I just wish I could have appreciated it more at the time. But that's a … Continue reading When the breakdown happened…
Observations from the Brink 